By TeenDeja in Uncategorized on August 22 2008
Some of you might be aware of my family background and a little more about my hisory. But ill give a brief story so you’ll understand what im about to talk about. For most of my life until the past 2 and a half years, my mom has been a drug addict. I’ve moved around a lot, and from about 6th grade on, only lived with her for about 2 years. Well my junior year was one of the years I tried living with her again and the last. When school ended muy junior year, I left minnesota to come back to kansas to see friends and family like people for a few weeks. Well a lot happend during those few weeks and I ended up deciding to stay in kansas and make it on my own at 17. Just turned 17 actually. I didn’t want to live in that environment aanymore and I didn’t want to live in motels my senior year.
Anyways the whole point of this story is, I often think about how far I’ve come since then. I had a suitcase of summer clothes, no place to live except with friends at the moment, no car cause my clutch went out on the way down to kansas. Now I have a life. A life I built. I have a ouse full of stuff too! And that was just a few years ago. I’ve never really considered myself a little girl, because I grew uip fast – too fast. But looking back, I was a little girl, and I think its ok to admit now that I was a little scared.
Even tho im proud of everything, I still get sad sometimes because, I don’t like to lose anything and I hardly ever do. I keep things sacred to me, always have. But when I left, my mom put all our stuff in storage and eventually it all got thrown away or sold. So I lost everything pretty much – my baby books, batism dress, jewery from my great grandmother, thousands of pictures and letters. Poems I wrote. Sometimes I still get very sad about losing it all and it saddens me even more that I won’t have those things to pass down to my children.
I try and remember that that’s not important as what I have now, things I have done and and that I have a mother that is clean and doing well and that for once in my life a whole family that is put together and talking nd happy. And that I don’t worry any more like I used to, that’s probably the best feeling and greatest relief. I don’t say it as much as I should, but I am proud of my mom, and am eternally grateful to my nana, and will always love my little brother as a mother loves her child – unconditionally.
These are just things io was thinking about laying here in bed. I was having a moment.
Goodnight
Xoxo
Deja
By TeenDeja in TeenDeja's Bulldogs, Uncategorized on August 18 2008
hey everyone
so my bulldog website is CuteBulldogs but i am going to be making like a little blog site for the bullies too so i can post LOTS of pictures and videos, i still have to get it all set up but for now there is 2 videos I really want you to check out. They are on CuteBulldogs.Com
Its a video of the first time they are real food (musdh). They loved it. Afterward they all passed out on their backs and went to sleep. I got a picture but for some reason i still cant get this blog to post my pictures yet! Arrrggghh! Anyways, check it out!
Oh and I have a memebers show tomorrow evening!
XoXo
teenDeja
By TeenDeja in Uncategorized on August 14 2008
Hey everyone, I didnt have a a computer for like 2 days, it sucked! Yes, my other laptop was broke, and I was out of town. I couldnt do any work! Then again, I was on a mini vacation trip and I guess thats kinda the point, but it still sucked.
I went to Kansas City this weekend to do some family stuff, I had a good time. Monday I went to an amusement park called Worlds Of Fun. I was there from open to close – it was a long day, luckily it was only like 83 degrees out so it wasnt hot. I had dun, but I am not really the kind of girl that likes roller coaster rides. An amusement park is not my idea of a fun date. LOL. Dont get me wrong – I have fun on them and I dont even get sick on them, its just that I get really nervous before I get on. Big Time nervous. I tend to over think every possible bad thing that could go wrong while im on the ride. See when I was young, too young, like 5 yrs old, I watched this like caught on camera type of show. There was a roller coaster that had gotten stuff, and the guy went up to fix it, and then it started and ran over his leg and they ended up having to take it off there. And that just always sticks in my head I guess. I dont know, just not my kind of thing. PLus im claustraphobic to a point, and I dont like the things going over my head, and I have a thing about things “getting stuck”. Like elevators, i dont like to take them, but i DO NOT take them by myself, I will walk up 15 flights if i have to.
XoX
Teen Deja
Oh and here is a link so you can see when I am on web cam doing private shows!
Click Here To See Me Live
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By TeenDeja in Uncategorized on August 4 2008
For those wondering, my friend is stable rat the moment. Thank you for all who have been keeping him in your thoughts!
By TeenDeja in Uncategorized on August 1 2008
Hey everyone, im writing from my phone, I always forget that I can do that. Anyhow, been back and forth between my house and the hospital. There have been some new updats on him but im going to wait to give them because they are so back and forth (good and bad). He has a 50% mortality rate right now and if he makes he he has a long road ahead of him.
I haven’t scheduled my members show for this week because I didn’t want to schedule it and then have to cancel, so I apologize for the late notice. I plan on making my show for sunday tho. Also within the next two weeks I am going to be starting real member shows, those are shows just for my memebers and they are free. You will have to be a member to see them. I might do one a week and then maybe 3 the next week or none for a week, it will be very kewl. And of course this is along with my other free hour members show for camz.
Well I am staying in tonite and going to be doing prvt shows, so pop in if you want to say hi!
Xoxo
Deja
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