By TeenDeja in Uncategorized on September 28 2007
Hell ya, it’s finally friday! Boy let me tell you it has been a LONG week, and not a very good one either! But tonite, its on! I’m going back home, and I get to see my friends and I get to have fun, and Im not going to worry about anything tonite! Im going to drink a lot of – um – pop. LOL. NOT. And Im going to dance!
Lets see, I still have no word on whether I got this apartment that I want or not, so I think I should probably start looking for a different one…
School is going okay, My grades are good. Algebra still sucks, sucked then sucks now. LOL.
HAVE A GREAT NITE! I’ll post pictures of my nite for ya!
XoXo
Yours Truly,
TeenDeja
By TeenDeja in Uncategorized on September 25 2007
Okay Deja, Here it goes…
I am moving. I am moving out. I am moving out of the house that my boyfriend and I share. There I said it. Its hard to say because I know saying it makes it real, and it means that I am really going to do it.
We have been and have lived together for 17 months. Don’t get me wrong, we have a lot in common, have fun together, want a lot of the same things, actually we would ideally be a perfect couple. But we have both made this relationship harder than it should have to be in many ways.
For a couple months now I was debating on whether I should move out or not. I know I cannot live without being shown I am appriciated for things I do, or being shown that I am loved, or knowing that I mean as much to someone as they do to me. I dragged my feet about it, and this weekend was hard and he said he thought it was a good idea for me to get my own place too. Which was hard to hear. He said he thinks we should date. ?
Now to be honest, I’ve um never lived on my own – and I havent really dated. I’ve had three long relationships, and thats kinda what Im used to…. so I guess I’m going to try it….
And it’s scary to think I’m going to be living on my own. I’ve always lived with someone before, I actually left home very early (for reasons Im not ready to get into yet).
BUT, I am kinda excited. I mean it could be fun. I’ll get to decorate just how I want, My house will stay clean the way I like. I can do things that people my age do… And it will be me and Maggie (My puppy… who by the way just turned five months).
Uhhh. Its going to be fine. Im going to be fine. Everything happens for a reason, and your not supposed to know what reason is until later on…
Well its late, I should get some sleep. I think I am going to start moving tomorrow, Im waiting for the approval from the apartments tho… cross your fingers…
XoXo
TeenDeja
By TeenDeja in Uncategorized on September 24 2007
OKay, it is real and tomorrow i am going to write in whats been going on, I am just way to tired to do it tonite…. But i have some poems I would like to share with you, They were both written in either 2006 (I think, like I can remember.. lol).
I hope you enjoy them, I hope as a writer that someday the words I write will touch someones heart as things I read do mine. Ya know, one good thing about feeling hurt is that, it is probably the most inspirational thing to me, go figure huh…. anywys, check em out.
XoXo
Yours Truly,
TeenDeja
Breaking Point by ME (oh and it is copywrited, so it can’t be used, i just prefer not to put my last nite all out there ya know… lol)
My head is spinning;
my heart is racing.
Days and Nights;
are all a blur.
Try and try again;
yet there is no cure.
You can’t runaway;
for there is no escape.
Just wait it out;
surely is has to fade.
Too much can be enough;
that pushes you to break.
You cry in the dark, alone in a corner;
knowing what you have to take.
Unifying Souls by ME
Through your eyes, I can see your heart.
All your love, hurt, and deepest thoughts.
From the touch of your fingertips, your words I can hear.
Your laughs, secrets, and biggest fears.
By the way you smile, I can feel your mind.
All your doubts, cares, and greatest finds.
Through you, I know the real me.
My triumphs, faults, and everything I’m supposed to be.
By TeenDeja in Uncategorized on September 23 2007
Hey,
Where to begin? I know I have not been myself lately, and I apologize for not sharing why… and I cannot bring myself to say why tonite either. Because if I say it, and I share it, then it’s real, and i’m not ready for it to be real yet. All I can say is that soon, I will share what has been weighing on my mind and my heart for awhile now.
I am the type of person that when things are not going right in my life and if i’m sad or worried or stressed, etc. I tend to shut myself away from people. And it’s always such a dead give away to my close friends and family. But really, I just can’t talk about things until I deal with them. Ugh, this isnt going well tonite….
Lets see, this weekend I needed a little escape I guess you could say. I went back to my hometown and say some friends. It definitaly got hings off my mind for while. I had fun ectually, and I honestly didnt know if I would. We went to a friends Wedding Dance (which is just a reception), I got a little drunk, and my friends and I danced to all the old school music and then two stepped to the country music. It was quit funny. Its nice to have such good friends that I can always count on to be there for me and to make me feel better – and whats really great is they know me so well, I dont have to talk if I dont want or I can talk their ear off…
Well, I hope you all had a good weekend!! 
XoXo
Teen Deja
By TeenDeja in Uncategorized on September 19 2007
Okay, some things you should know about me! One – I LOVE purses – and BIG… NO HUGE purses!!! Ugh! I want a black and Brown one this winter! And Two – I love BOOTS! love love love boots… hey a girl has to keep her feet warm in the winter right? And dont roll your eyes, you know you’d like to see me in a skirt with kneww high boots! See what I mean?
I really Like this purse, I guess I better start saving huh!
XoXo
TeenDeja
By TeenDeja in Andi Pink, Uncategorized, ariel rebel, teendeja on September 17 2007
Hey everyone!
I talked to my friend Ariel rebel this weekend. She is from canada so I dont get to see her very often. We met last year in florida, and hit it off right away… but then again, how could we not have – she is such a sweetheart! And of course she is just the cutest little thing. Anyways, during our girl talk we got to talking about when we did a little photoshoot together there, our friend Andi Pink was also there… This photoshoot was definitaly more play than it was work, if ya know what I mean! I’ll just let you see for yourself though!!!!
 
click here
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Well, with those thoughts on my mind again – Time for me to go to bed and go to – um sleep! hehehe
XoXo
Yours Truly,
Teen Deja
Tags: andipink, arielrebel
By TeenDeja in Uncategorized on September 7 2007
Hello,
So do you have any fun weekend plans? I dont really have any plans, im just kinda going with the flow, ya know.
Tonite tho, I took my little sister out for her Birthday. She turned 16 on Wed, so she’s not really little anymore. Its amazing how much wiser you get in just a couple years… When I was her age, I thought the same way she does, and now I just want to tell her everything so that she knows things before hand, but when your that age, you just have to find out for yourself. And you have to let people…..
Anyway, I took her to dinner and to see a movie, we saw I Now Pronounce You Chuck And Larry, It was pretty funny, a little corney in some spots but over all funny, Plus I kinda have a thing for Adam Sandler.. Seriously, I’ve see most of his movies but I developed a crush on him when I saw Spanglish, it was so sweet! Funny Huh?!?!
Well I hope you had a good friday Nite!!!
XoXo
TeenDeja
By TeenDeja in Uncategorized on September 3 2007
Hey everyone, How was your memorial day weekend? Mine was okay, I actually didn’t do anything at all – and it was fun. It’s nice to just have one of those weekends where you dont do anything.
So not a lot has been going on, Im just getting used to the whole college thing and working and stuff. I really hate my math course tho, math is so not my favorite or best subject, never has been. I just don’t get it sometimes, and all the formulas always seem the same to me – ugh! But english however, is something i just get ya know?
Wanna hear something funny, I gave my dogs a treat yesterday – and have you ever heard of those dog toys that you put peanut butter in and they lick it out? Well my friend told me about it, and I keep forgetting to go get it, so yesterday i just smeared Peanut Butter all around in there bowls. Well jake can lick it out easily, but maggie has to put her whole head in it – when she got done she looked like Winnie the Pooh with honey all over…. lol… it was so cute!
Well I hope you had a nice weekend.
XoXo
TeenDeja
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