Getting Personal
By TeenDeja in Uncategorized on September 25 2007Okay Deja, Here it goes…
I am moving. I am moving out. I am moving out of the house that my boyfriend and I share. There I said it. Its hard to say because I know saying it makes it real, and it means that I am really going to do it.
We have been and have lived together for 17 months. Don’t get me wrong, we have a lot in common, have fun together, want a lot of the same things, actually we would ideally be a perfect couple. But we have both made this relationship harder than it should have to be in many ways.
For a couple months now I was debating on whether I should move out or not. I know I cannot live without being shown I am appriciated for things I do, or being shown that I am loved, or knowing that I mean as much to someone as they do to me. I dragged my feet about it, and this weekend was hard and he said he thought it was a good idea for me to get my own place too. Which was hard to hear. He said he thinks we should date. ?
Now to be honest, I’ve um never lived on my own – and I havent really dated. I’ve had three long relationships, and thats kinda what Im used to…. so I guess I’m going to try it….
And it’s scary to think I’m going to be living on my own. I’ve always lived with someone before, I actually left home very early (for reasons Im not ready to get into yet).
BUT, I am kinda excited. I mean it could be fun. I’ll get to decorate just how I want, My house will stay clean the way I like. I can do things that people my age do… And it will be me and Maggie (My puppy… who by the way just turned five months).
Uhhh. Its going to be fine. Im going to be fine. Everything happens for a reason, and your not supposed to know what reason is until later on…
Well its late, I should get some sleep. I think I am going to start moving tomorrow, Im waiting for the approval from the apartments tho… cross your fingers…
XoXo
TeenDeja
